Wednesday, April 25, 2007
I realli can't give a damn.
Things aren't going well all the way frm monday,the start of the week.
Nothing but fights.
i'm soooooooooo damn pissed with him n i know he is too equally.
watever!
:( Work:
its jsut piling up.
Loads and loads to do.
Now it has multiplied 100 times cos the current one has resigned.
Till the new recruit comes in,i've got to take over.
Handling of mcs,MTE,Data entry,Filing,E-mails, chasing for MC sampling!!!
seriously its sooo hectic and stressful.
I return home all drained out every single day.
Gotta go MDIS tmr to pay up the first installment.
I can't wait to start sch.
Awaiting April 14! :)
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Had a tiresome week thou.
Had to go for relief teaching right after work this week.
But the kids made my day.
There was this p3 boy in the class,such a cute guy.
I just felt like kissing his cheek and pinching him.
Such a cute guy,but lucky i'm not that insane to do that.
So i escape the senario of a molest case or watever they call that.
:)
he's still in my mind.
Such a cute botak fair boy.
Work was fine.
Loads actually.
Updating of MCs (childsick leave,childcare leave,Ict leave,Unrecorded leave,Paternity leave, marriage leave & maternity leave for the different police officers from different divisions.)
That's the same old cycle each day i go thru.
yET, I'M SATISFIED WITH DATA ENTRY.
rather happy to do it,i wud say.
Sometimes..not really sometimes, most of the times i feel like a wierd person...cos everyone's is complaining abt the data entry.How irritating and troublesome it is. but i'm the oni wierd kid there asking for more and enjoying it.
Seriously they all hate it.
The bf's not good at the moment.
1 week has passed and he hasn't met me.
He and his stupid dance practice which covers his sunday.
That's the oni day i can spend at least 1 hr after tution.
such an annyoing this!
Yet i stood by it.
Today,frm 2 to 8 he didn't even make an effort to msg.
When i called him at 5 asking y he didn't reply,he told me he didn't see and is practising.
Am i some kind of dumb ass?
Doesn't anyone take at least a 5 minutes break?
Don't tell me u danced all the way!!
And worse still for hours.....!!!!
And now he just msged me saying its all over and he's gonna take his dinner and then relax with them.
When i told him to leave me alone,he replied 'k'!!
such annnnnnnnnnnn ah 4get it!!
no use whining.cos guys are gd for saying we're nagging!!!
The whole day was with them for a dance practice and he tells me a new tale as if they just met and are gonna relax together.
If its a dance practice for 24hrs, just don't tell me u won't check yr phone till the 24hrs over.?!
Am i some kind of idiot to bear with it?
I just m so pissed to the max that i can't be bothered to reply.
If i was in his shoes, he wud demand at least 10 msges thou i'm buzi.
At least i just asked y he didn't reply.
Sometimes everything just makes me boil.
Argh!!!
My granny was here for nearly 3hrs and just left.
It was so nice having her here.
Somehow,it scares me.
SHe's 63 NOW.
Old and sickly.
The best grandmother i've always had.
Had always looked upon.
And whom i've enjoyed the company of.
A lovable,cute and caring grandmother with her own beautiful unique character.
sOMEHOW IT SCARES ME TO SEE HER GETTING OLDER AND OLDER BY DAYS.
i'm just afraid of the worst.
I want her to be here in this world as long as i m in it.
I want her company forever.
I wanna hear the morning calls she gives.
Her laughter.
Her jokes.
Her crucial remarks of life.
Everything abt her is a must and a piece of cake.
She's someone close to my heart.
Even more than my own parents.
I c her even more important to me than my own mother.
Maybe its due to the fact that she raised me when i was young.
She saw me tru my primary sch.
She fed me,fetched me,played with me & canned me!!
i remeber all those good days vividly.
And i seriously can't bear to loose her.
Such a wonderful inspirational lady who kisses and hugs all her grandaughters and grandsons till today.
she means alot to me.
:)
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
1 week has passed.
Just by working.
At vital.
As HR coordinator.
Loads and loads of paperwork and data entry.
Filing is such a blardy bore.
I'll yawn umpteen times while i'm filing.
i just hate it.
Data entry's good but when there's some problems in their MC submission,then it becomes a killer.
Another big headache, i've got to see that traitor's mum everyday morning.
Till the end of the day.
same cabin.
Sucks.
Other than that,its pretty good for a start.
Sunday was such a horrible day.
I cancelled my tution just to meet him.
There's like no time for us nowadays.
Sad!!!
So i took bus to dobby ghaut.
I was reading a book not really aware of the surrounding.
Just as i was about to check out if i'm reaching the stop,the Eurasian Guy who was sitting directly opposite me started smiling in my direction.
I found it funny but then i ignored,thinking that he was or might be smiling at the person whose sitting behind me.i continued reading my book.
This Eurasian guy got up from his seat, came right behind me and he sat dwn.
Suddenly i heard him mumbling, close to my ears.
Again i discared the idea that he might be talking to me, thinking that he's talking to someone beside him.
Thank god i checked out the reflection, there WAS NO ONE beside him.
I turned my head slightly to the right to check out the bus-stop when he just opened his mouth starting a conversation.
"hi, are u an Indian?"(with his stupid ANG MO ACCENT!!)
i replied him with a yes.
"From where?"
from singapre!
"Oh okay singapore!! where do you stay? which university do you study in?"
My mouth just dropped open.
I realli was speechless for a moment.
I was replying him all the while thinking that he was jsut trynna be friendly(the usual types that i meet) or the one who was gonna ask for some direction but he was fucking hell asking details abt me!!
somehow i pulled myself together frm the shock.
I became v.pissed and i asked him why do you wanna know all this?how is this gonna help you in anyway?
And he just said it straight to my face smiling in a damn blardy cheeky manner.
"Well that's cause i'm interested in you, i wanna get to know you. so tell me!"
Such a filty ass bastard.
He was definetly 38 years old.
Luckily he happened to call at the right time and i started hanging on the phone.
I got down the bus-stop at YMCA itself,a stop b4 my stop.
Just to avoid any more conversation with that dumb ass.
When i told him, he was so mad.
He started yelling at me for answering that fellos question.
Scolded me nearly a 50 times "stupid" :(
How in the world would i noe??!!!
i've never came across such bastard Eurasian fellos.
Argh!!
But at the end of the day,i did feel stupid.
Alrite,i'm gonna continue reading my book now.
Gotta go for work tmr.
cya.nitez.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Thursday, April 05, 2007
so much of ignorance.
ntn but that totally.
watever.
sometimes u've got to give them their own version of it.
i'll make it all sour.
alrite.
Got a job.
At mum's work place.
Temp.
10 of April to the end of june.
8.30-6.00!
yet to recieve the mail on what its all about.
SO gonna start work on tuesday.
Its best that i go to work cos it doesn't seem any beneficial to be at hme other than sending the little 1 to sch.That i'm gonna truly miss.
Starting My course in MDIS on the 14th of May.
I recieved the confirmation letter yesterday.
Haiz gotta wait for a month.
Grrr!!!
tat's all for now.
It’s the only burden i’ve ever borne .
Another memory ’ll always fear.
One of these days 360 is going to come right back to you.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
