Sunday, December 30, 2007
Its my fav pic that was taken with my darling 1 yr back.
Whenever i take a look at this, i need his kiss.
But its just way too bad that he's not beside me at the moment.
I'm gonna blow up this pic and keep it.
I'm missing u very much.
And i wish you were right here beside me to tell me once again how much you love me, to remind me that you would be there always, to make me feel very much safe with that hug of your's and to whisper "I love You." i'LL never get enuff of you, Would i Baby? Am i becoming a poet by any chance? *Grinz*
Hope 2008 is a Blessed one for all!! i'M WISHING you earlier so i'm kept way high up in yr list. *woo*
Alright i just can't wait for sch to start... im too sick and tired of bumming around. And i would like a full time job. I want to keep myself occupied like how i was that time. Juggling both studies and work. Oh my, I just love the feeling of stress. The main cause of me doing last minute revision.... I panic as there are way too many chapters and there i get all stressed up, but i simply love the feeling. I used to feel very much satisfied, skillful and upright apart from the stress when i was juggling with both work and school. Yeah, i left my job after a while cos the pay was not equivalent to the amt of work i had to do and i realli wanted a break. But now, i'm off my break. That's the problem with me. I cling to all for a very short period. I'm unable to predict my next move. It just comes up like a surprise to both u and me. Trust me, i'm included. hOpe i get a job very soon!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Monday, December 24, 2007
Accompanied my darling to do his Christmas shopping.
He had me circling Queensway Shopping Centre.
I dread shopping with the bf.
He's way too choosy and if he's got an idea abt how he wants the whole outfit to be [which is like 3/4 of the time] he searches till he gets the exact kind. He never ever gives up till the very very very very very last end. You know that is both a good and a bad point. Good that you don't give up easily! Bad cos you're circling that mall for the 25th time and complaining that they don't have it. Today, it was the same old procedure once again. We were circling Queensway shopping centre for abt 21/2 hrs Searching for a long sleeve White shirt, a somewhat brown pants and a vest. In the end he just bought the vest cause he couldn't get that exact kind of Long sleeve white shirt and brown pants that he had drawn up by that tiny winy brain. *grinz* So we headed to bugis in search of the remaining items. But ohmy, Bugis street was teeming. i was worried that i might just fall off-balance. U know ....i've got breathing problem when it comes to crowded areas! So we were moving very slowly due to the no.of people. When its jam-packed its common to get hit by people, common to get yr way blocked and common to see some of them walking very slowly when there's no one ahead of them. The bf got pissed at every single situation. Kept on cursing and swearing. He gave up walking arnd within 1/2hr. *Jeez* u've got to be mentally prepareD!! Orchard and Bugis would be jam-packed on ordinary days so what do you expect a day b4 Christmas. Such an impatient gundu! Since he had to rush off for a party, he sent me back home and headed back down to Queenstown & bought the same long sleeve white Shirt we saw earlier which was priced for 59 dollars and then headed back home.Oh god, how in the world will i bear with this shopping freak?!! Luckily i'm totally the opposite of him in this case. I would plan what i wan but if i'm not able to get it, i switch to what's available there. I find it nice, i'll buy it. I'll never carry my arse from 1 place to another in search of a clothing. If i came to this place to buy, i'll make sure i buy something and settle it there and then. Oh god, pls give me the strength to bear with this boy's shopping gibberish! But seriosuly, today was so much better than the other times i followed you jingles kanna. i swear, thou my legs hurt.
Baby bought me the Chip and Dale towel. That was a surprise! *grinz*
He's such a sugar boy no matter what.
Marry X'mas to You baby!
Marry X'mas to Everyone!
*Muacks*
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Mum's not feeling well since yesterday. Down with a terrible cough and cold. Its been passed dwn as an outcome of the regular visits to my granny's place i guess. Granny's been dwn with chest infection since the day she arrived back from India. Granny was hospitalised and got discharged 2 days ago. She was all the while shaky. Too drained out that it was even difficult for her to bathe or have her meals. Mum was there torturing her to get her up to do the routine things. My mum believes in doing yr normal stuff with the same level of energy even when you're sick. If you're going to be in bed lying dwn and resting the whole day, there she would come dwn harsh on you. If you're not going to do the way she wants it, she starts comparing you with cancer patients. Reminding you that their illness is worse off and yet there are so many of them on their toes. For her acquaintance and experience she's always been detested by my 2 aunts[her sisters], her mum and her dad. She orders them to cook for themselves, take a long walk to help in the digestion of their food, tells them not to depend on the rest since they are not bedridden & reprimand when they're exaggerating their health situations to the relatives just to gain pitness. My mother is the only child among the 4 of them who gives so much of instructions and recommendations for her parents and that's only for the good of them. She strongly believes that the more they depend on the maid and their daughter-in-law to do everything for them, the more health problems they've got to face. That's very true. When the muscles are not working, it would lead to atrpohy of the skeletal muscles. That's not that bad. But what if they become bedridden if we've got to imagine the worst case scenario. The other siblings do not seem much bothered with these facts. Afterall its the maid whose suffering. She's got to bathe my grandmother, massage her neck and back whenever my grandmother asks for it and etc. Since its just the maid's upstrggle with the old couple, the aunts don't seem bothered at all. They feel that they're very much of a help to their mum. I should exclude my uncle. Afterall, my uncle's wife is also demanded to do all this. And that's one of the main reason why the old couple and my uncle go through a dispute often. It just doen't seem right to ask someone else to bathe you, to bring you your meal, to take it back after you've finished it,to make you drinks,to massage you, to cut for you fruits, to bring you your medicine, to put on yr bedsheets and pillowcase for you, to fold your clothes etc. for you when you're not bedridden. The hands and legs of yrs are still working. Even though not as effectively as then, its still in a workable condition. So what's all this supposed to boil down to? Pure laziness. And whose going to account for this attitude other then yrself?! My mum says she gave up on her parents.
That's what she says, but she's always there to knock some sense into them which goes unheard. It only once again turns her into a rutheless child to the old couples eyes.
Though my grandparents are of such a character i do not despise them.
I do get frustrated with their doings but i've learnt to close 1 eye in their situation.
I've got a lovely grandmother no matter what it is. She still loves all of us. But its just sad that she doesn't seek the advise which means something to her health. Instead she finds my mum uttering rubbish and not being able to understand that she's getting old. Old doesn't mean bedridden. It means to be wise, taking care of oneself and pushing away flooding thoughts which tell you nothing but yr body's weakness & being higly independent as much as possible. I think my grandparents grew up lazy taking adavantage of their son, daughters and maids presence and help. Now they've learnt to utilse them very effectively thou their muscles are not being utilised. lol. All of us can only pray for the old couple to live longer as they make the whole family fall into 1 beautiful piece. Hopefully, i don become like my grandmother when i'm aging. i'll pray to be less dependent on my kids and also pray that i would have a peaceful death as i do not want to cause people arnd me mental and physcial pain by being bedridden or anything. As much as i can i would do everything by myself and not take adavantage of any soul.
I was reading "Make that call You've been putting off" by Mathew Pereira. I love to read his articles. They've never failed in getting me to think. He's mostly tallking about relationships and the wonderful things we forget to see in it. I read today's article. The one i mentioned earlier and somehow it set me thinking about my grandparents and my mum. As usual he sets me thinking and feel refreshed afeter the flodding thoughts and memories. He makes people understand the value of family and relationships in his article thoroughly. A good journalist is one who sets people thinking and he does that just right!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Friday, December 21, 2007
Finally my papers are over.
I feel so relieved despite the fact that Biochemistry Paper's gonna be a major flop.
My Pathology paper was so much easier to handle.
The Section B of Biochem paper was a killer.
And it's 50% Mcq and 50% on the essay.
It was a real last minute revision this time round.
It just proved much worse as the PY and Biochem books are that damn thick.
I was slogging for the past few days with the help of high amt of caffeine.
Biochem's 10 credits, Py's 20 credits.
*Jeez*
Next term... it's going to be even worse as there's going to be Analytical Biochem.
New Year Rosolution: To start revising every chapter once its done by the lecturers.
N this time round i've got to stick by it.
I''ll make sure i do.
New Year Resolutions:
1) To control my temper
2) Revise all stuff after lectures
3) To make an effort to understand all lectures
4) To eat less fatty food... i seriously don't know how to refrain frm KFC!! Have u seen KFC addict B4? tRUST me i'm 1!
5) To clear the dark spots on my face(alrite i Know u might think its stupid, i give no shit)
6) To get more tution assignments
7) Find time to Read storybooks
8)bY EnD OF 2008, make Jingles Kanna Quit smoking!!
9) Intake of more vitamins* I really suck at this and that's why i'm always falling sick*
9) Change my wardrobe
10) Make it a point to get my arse dwn to temple and be vegetarian on the days that i go to temple.
11) Buy a Guess Bag *Grinz*
12) Get my stuffs done for the baby
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Given the toy,
the child found joy.
All the child saw was her and the toy.
The joy she had with it by her side.
Only when it started scarring her,
deeply,
mentally,
she found nothing but a deep cut,
a wound that could never heal,
as it's way down....
the place where she withold the love for the toy,
the place where it beats just to call out its name,
the place where memories can be found.
and now the love she had for it is labelled "fake".
She pinched herself believing it would be a dream,
only to find the pinch of reality hitting.
A lier.. An actress she became in an instant!
That moment she wished she was deaf
but she knew that just by being deaf it isn't enough.
There it came tearing her apart,
Nothing left to say apart from the tears that strolled down her cheeks.
If only it was a real toy- Nothing would have happened she thought!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Was just curious after i saw Pna's Blog.
Soo i tried...
| What Your Handwriting Says About You |
You are highly energetic. You are a passionate, intense, vigorous person.
You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical.
You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.
You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.
You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.
You are a good communicator. You work hard to get your ideas across effectively. |
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Two hearts beating together,
calling out one another.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Friday, December 14, 2007
I caught Alvin and the Chipmunks.
My favourite: Theodore .
Simply cute and emotional.
The movie is about the 3 chipmunks meeting David Seville a song writer, and turning his life into hell.
The acting is life like and even believable!
The songs were simply superb.
The chipmunks attempt to create a romatic atmosphere for Dave and his partner was really funny.
I love Chipmunks and they made me fall deeper for them once again.
Theodore's role is pretty unforgettable.
Jingles Kanna loves Theodore too.
Thedore and his fat ass and clowny deeds.
im going with the family once again next week.
*Grinz**
Alrite goota go study for my exams.
Happy weekend ppl!
Oh damn i've got to go to Guru hse tmr and an interview on Sunday.
Holyshit.. My weekend is burnt!!
Oh alrite u guys have an enjoyable one.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Mum's booking for a Bangkok trip during the period of March.
3days.
Been very long since we went for a holiday.
I miss those good old days of the holiday with the family.
It was good and would always turn out to be good.
Fun fun and nothing else.
This time mum told its more of shopping at the night market.
I'm all ready to go with the family after a long pause.
N i'm sure to miss the jingles kanna.
He skipped the hol trip with his family to KL.
I don't noe the underlying reason for sure but its good cos he'll be arnd and thus, i wud be able to see him.
In a way i feel sorry for him cause he's missing the family outing!
Who doesn't love family outings yeah?
It is special too.. just as much as the couple's outing, in its own way.
Oh yeah baby said we could spend the whole of mon wathcing movies.
I'm so happy indeed. Its after so freaking long that i would get a day to be with him.
I enjoy being with him.
Somehow he has become my best friend, best partner & best advisor.
I feel very comfortable and at ease to tok to him.
I noe that he hears meout 100% and i don feel paiseh when im up with silly mistakes.
I'm able to tok anything under the sun with him.
Thanks to his attempt of seeing each other every single day if its possible.
Yah.. many have asked me how im able to see him every day! ''Don't u get bored?'' their famous qn!!
I don't. I don't see a point of getting bored at all and i really don't understand how the hell some of my friends can get bored if they see their bf everyday! Then how would you, after marriage?
I don see a point why me and my bf seem like wierdos to them.
But i care no more.
I've got lots to tok to him.. abt my family, my friends, movies,school work etc etc.
I feel overjoyed when i get to see him.
I don have to go thru the lonely bus rides if i get to see him.
Yeah i do pity him for the amount of top up he does as he fetches me to school and back home at least 4 times a week. Moreover its a long journey back. He reaches home at 12.30 and by the time he hits his sack its 1a.m. and he's got to be awake by 6 a.m to go to work. Rarely he complains he's slpy. Even if he doesn't, i know he would be. I've tried asking him to avoid the trips and rest at home. But he's adamant in meeting me, being with me even in that short while and most importantly to send me off safely at home cos my classes end at 10pm.
I've now adapted to his style of meeting him whenever its possible as i've grown used to him.
I've inherited his way. And i'm thankful i've found such a person. He's not all sugar. He's not all perfect. He has his dwnsides which can drive me up the wall.
But i'm happy..very much indeed, as i get to say i've got a wonderful partner no matter what it is.
Thou i didn't fall for you when i agreed to be yr gf,
i later fell purely for the character that you possess.
I'm very thankful that i gave it a try.
That try was and is worthwhile.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Let me enlighten you about my tution.
It was a hell of an experience.
I would have almost fainted at the doorstep when i saw the father of the child.
Blardy hell.. He's MR GURU, theone in the discpline commitee in RP.
He caught me umpteen times for wearing sandals and i so hated him to the core.
Never catch chinese students.. basket oways catch indian students oni!
None of the students liked him.
Oh sharme see la wat a small world it is indeed.
I kept my cool and enterd the hse.
Upon entry he said" Now this is what i want you to do!"
GAVE A WHOLE CHUNK OF GuIDANCE AS IF IM NOT A TUTOR BUT A VISITOR.
Helloooooooooo im there to teach.. a tutor.. u shdn't be telling me don give her homework at all, Just do the test papers and the problem sums ONly!!
Oh Christ!! She scored 17 marks out of 100 in P5 FINAL YEAR EXAM AND WHAT A DAD... telling me not to give homework.
I insisted i wud give homework and then said i can't just do the test papers but go thru the textbook too. *Shrugz*
Guru: So u're from RP?
Me: yah
Guru: Have you seen me there?
Me: Ah noooooo never!!
Guru: Oh when did you graduate?
Me: 3 yrs ago! * veeduda saamy*
Guru: I'm the Discipline master there! Do you have any friends in RP now?
Me: Oh is it?! okay. * He was in the position for security guard more la* No friends there at the moment.
Guru: Oh.. if you ask the people, they will tell u abt me! They noe very well!
Me: Nod. * pona action sia*
Guru: So since you graduated from RP 3 yrs ago, you were in tanglin campus?
Me: yes, absolutely.
Guru: So u've never seen the new campus
Me: Yah never see b4
Guru: Its very big noe. Better than tanglin!
Me: oh is it. ok. * madasambirani i studied there and u've caught me umpteen times for my sandals*
Phew...
What a day.
*jINGLES KANNA HAD SO MUCH FUN IN pALAWAN bEACH that he 4get my PRESENCE!*
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Friday, December 07, 2007
My Chip n Dale File
2008 chip n dale calender
My chip n dale pencilcaseI've bought the CHip and dale stuff.
Yipee!!
I'm left with the mug, pen,towel and the bedsheet!
I wan i wan all of them.
I'm in high spirits.
Jingles kanna gave up on me...
He went " what a childish freak i've got as gf!"
haiz... he's gone to jb with his "NETWORK"
I''ll have to wait till sunday....
N there's a picnic arraged by the "network" at Sentosa on Sunday.
Gotta go after my tution.
Sunday's my fresh start on a tution assgignment.
P6 gal... gotta teach her Maths and tamil.
Every Sunday,frm 10-12am.
The best part... the studen't name is Lavanya!!
When the tution agent told me that i was like... U've gotta be kidding me!
I'm just hoping to get more assignments so that my income wud be stable at least to support myself! *Grinz*
I do not want to go to work yet...
Baby's been giving me 50 bucks for the past 2 months as im buming arnd at home with no cash but a major hole in the pocket.
So sweet and that's my Jingles kanna!!
*Baby u promised me KFC this sunday. Mind u!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
I caught Enchanted & Azhagiya Tamil Magan in theatre.
The enchanted was a pleasant and softly written fairy tale indeed.
I just felt so calm and happy after the show.
Alrite.. i didn't go for meditation for 1 and a half hrs but a movie alrite.
But somehow it just made me feel good. Real good!
Azhagiya Tamil Magan was a typical waste of my 10 dollars.
I just find his double acting like crap.
He's so damn hopeless in portraying himself as a villan!
It was no different from the other character ( e good one) that he was doing.
Seriously the villan roles just ain't his.
He's just too good ( in a good way i mean) to be a villan.
He is not able to or fit to as a bad guy.
I've got ntn against Vijay.
Seriously i like his acting and dancing.
I'm just giving my point of view on this movie.
Story wasn't that great either.
It was just draggy.
I caught Vel!
I prefer Vel to Azhagiya Tamil Magan.
Not forgetting to mention Surya was really hot in that movie!
Alrite Vickram's MUCH better!
I took the new bus yesterday as i was on my way to meet the Jingles Kanna..
You know the SBS transit bus which is so open and the last seat is so damn high up!
Yeah i got onto it yesterday for the first time and it realli suxed big time.
The bus seriously serves no purpose in any other way, other than being on its wheels.
i WAS COUNTING.. there are 18 seats not including the 3 seats near the driver's place and the stretch at the back.
So just add on to the list of how many passengers are able to sit.
With so many steps to get to the seats and a relatively high back seat i don get what's the point in this bus.
Within minutes the bus got so packed at the front area (macham sardine like)!
Obviously it would, cos the no. of seats are so limited, furthermore passengers can't move to the back as the steps are so narrow.
I was just waiting to get my ass out of the bus.
It was and is a real waste!
And never will i take that bus again.
Alrite i've got stuff to do.
Updates later.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
My Chip n Dale File
