Friday, September 28, 2007
Sometimes reading another person's blog can just makes u all dwn.
I was reading one of my friend's blog.
i wonder why is life so dwn on my side in certain aspects.
Not to say that every bit of my life suxz, seriously not every bit.
Its just the understanding that lacks from some ppl.
So it causes lots of problems.
I guess we just have to force ourselves to be satisfied no matter what right!
That's what ppl say.
That's what they think we shd be doing instead of grumbling!
eNUfF Said!
Yesterday baby came to fetch me from sch.
We were just talking about marriage and there n then i saw all the complications involved.
Its after so long that i feel the complications.
I used to know the arrival of complications but it didn't really get to my nerves.
I didn't really feel the effect, but yesterday...it was different.
It kind of scared me to shit.
My mum always okie recently she even said " U just fell in love with him..when it comes to marriage how are we going to deal with it? He's of different religion. Do u noe how shameful it is for me and dad to announce that u are marrying a person out of religion. U n he will be happily married. Its me n dad who are going to handle with all these shame! What are we going to tell yr grandparents? How are we to answer our relatives?"
Seriously what's the blardy shame??
Shame out of a different religion??
I'm not marrying a guy who has been married three times and divorced right?
Neither am i marrying a totali useless bastard guy!
I just don get it why she keeps on saying its a shame!!
It really hurts whenever she mentions this.
I don even want to hold a 21st birthday party cos i noe he won't be able to come. My parents won't allow. N even if they do he has to act macham friend lyke that. I prefer him not to be there then to act as a friend! Do u tink im nuts? won't i want to hold a party too..its not lyke im having 21st for 5 yrs.Its just that i noe all these won't work out and so i just dropped all the desires and kept my mouth shut. I wud rather peacefully meet him, celebrate with him n click pictures.
I just fell in love with him...M i supposed to ask " excuse me which religion do u belong to cos my parents think its a shame to marry any1 who doesn't belong to Hindu Religion."
If they feel its such a shame then how the hell will they conduct the wedding in the near future. They feel so guilty and what do ya expect when relatives poke noses n make situations even laagi worse!
Its not that my mum's so bad...my dad's worse. He totalli doesn't accept him. At least mum has realised that he is impt to me and that he would be my husband & someday she has to accept. My dad he's total against my bf and i don't noe for what hell!
Its just so worse when you know that the years are counting dwn(7 yrs) and finally this whole marriage stuff would have to be dealt with. I can obviosuly close 1 eye or even push the entire thought to the back of my mind but 1 final day it wud come crashing dwn.
Sometimes i really wish i hasn't open my heart. Left it closed all the while. Nvr met him. If that's the case it saves all the pain and saves all the nonsenses i've to hear. My parents ,aunts, uncles all behave as if i just commited a big sin and as if they are bearing all the shame!
For heavensake i don understand what shit shame lies in here???
If its so difficult and shameful just to get us married cos he's of a different religion....
How blardy difficult wud it be 4 me to start living with him...deciding which god to place in the hse...deciding names for the child...deciding how to conduct ceremonies in future...who to invite & who not to invite!!!!!!!
Its just so irritating and sucky when yr own parents just don act matured enuff and dump all shit on you.
I so hate the word "Shameful"!!!
I don dare think abt our marriage and the problems that wud arise cos i can't be at peace.
All i noe is that i truly wish & want to live with the man whom i love deeply n can't be without.
No man can have the patience that he holds with me.
No man can stand my attitude and flight of anger other than him.
No man can understand my range of emotions and get it back right other than him.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Yewhooo!
Friday's my last day @ work n the last roadshow that i'll be conducting.
Coool, im leaving.
And at last i can wake up late in the mornings once again.
Hahaha. i so mizz it.
But i'll really mizz my gd working companions & not forgetting my Manager.
It's hard to find such good working ppl,easy to mingle arnd & non-authorative ones.
Its just that its hard to cope cos its too taxing.
I'm soo awaiting my birthday.
Not that im gonna hold any celebration.
Its just that firstly it wud be our 2nd year anniversary & i'm soo eager to get dressed in that panjabi suit that he had bought me. *glEeZ*
Not forgetting the luch date with the family.
muahahaha.
Gotta head for sch.
BRB!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Bravo!!
Second sem has commensed without even getting the 1st sem results.
I don really understand y the system is like that.
They take 3 months to pass us the results, n that's exactly the duration of our next written papper.
Grrr!! the outcome of the exam results---> Shivers!
Alrite just 2 days ago was our 1 year 11 mnths anniversary.
It was realli excellent.
We caught "NO RESERVATIONS", had pizza, took the cable car ride, Went to Underwater world and lastly headed to the Siloso Beach.
Night life at Sentosa was cool.
Without the half day leave we wouldn't have been able to enjoy this much.
It was one of the best anniversary that we had.
It realli seemed an Enjoyable 1.
Cos most of our anniversaries just end with a movie and dinner. [Kinda boring cos its repetitive u c]
Took lots of pics on that day.
The 1 yr 11mnths anniv will indeed be a memorable 1 for the both of us.
I hope to get to the Dolphin Lagoon the next time round with the bf.
i'M QUITTING from work... soon..v.soon..end of this month.
Planning to just be a full-time tutor cos its super tiring and there's just too many assignments to juggle with.
In 2 days time gotta be a complete vegetarian.
*ShrugZ* Birthday's gonna be the same ...with all the vegetarian stuff and vegetarian dinner @ some restaurant with the family.
Oh well, its nice to be vegetarian.
Less pimples---> Clear face---> Less trouble!
How i wish my family including him wud be @ 1 place celebrating my 21st!
It wud be the best birthday gift.
But there's just too slim a chance for this to happen.
mAYBE that wud be 5-7 yrs dwn the road :(
Planning to gobble down KFC b4 the vegetarian period starts.
Tk care ppl.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
Monday, September 03, 2007
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;
